My ‘oh yeah!’ moment happened when I got older and had kids of my own. When I heard this scripture verse, it just hit me. ~Psalm 4:3 (NIV) says, “Know that the Lord has set you apart his faithful servant for himself; the Lord hears when I call to Him.”~ I finally figured out why I never fit in anywhere. God was ‘setting me apart’. WOW! My lonely childhood forced me to pray. God was the only one I had to talk to most of the time. Even though I always thought I was an outcast, and thought I was all alone, I continually prayed to my one true friend. Since I had nobody else to talk to, I talked to God. ~1Thessalonians 5:17 (NIV) says, “Pray continually.”~ I didn’t know that verse back then, but I was really hungry for God. I was seeking God and He was doing a work in me. When I got up in the morning, I was praying and talking to God… all day… until I fell asleep at night. I didn’t know how powerful my prayers were. I know now. I had no idea that it was all for my good. I thought my life was awful and I hated it.
As I said earlier, I was an only child with hardly any friends. Most of the time, I was alone. It was very easy for God to set me apart. I was already basically set apart anyway. I had a vivid imagination, so I could entertain myself. Unlike kids today, I didn’t need a game system or computer to keep me occupied. I didn’t really give in to depression until I got a little older, a teenager. That’s when I stopped spending time with God and started listening to rebellious music and started dating rebellious boys. ~Proverbs 5:6 (NIV) says, “She gives no thought to the way of life; her paths are crooked, but she knows it not.”~ Ouch!