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My ‘oh yeah!’ moment happened when I got older and had kids of my own. When I heard this scripture verse, it just hit me. ~Psalm 4:3 (NIV) says, “Know that the Lord has set you apart his faithful servant for himself; the Lord hears when I call to Him.”~ I finally figured out why I never fit in anywhere. God was ‘setting me apart’. WOW! My lonely childhood forced me to pray. God was the only one I had to talk to most of the time. Even though I always thought I was an outcast, and thought I was all alone, I continually prayed to my one true friend. Since I had nobody else to talk to, I talked to God.  ~1Thessalonians 5:17 (NIV) says, “Pray continually.”~ I didn’t know that verse back then, but I was really hungry for God. I was seeking God and He was doing a work in me. When I got up in the morning, I was praying and talking to God… all day… until I fell asleep at night. I didn’t know how powerful my prayers were. I know now. I had no idea that it was all for my good. I thought my life was awful and I hated it.

As I said earlier, I was an only child with hardly any friends. Most of the time, I was alone. It was very easy for God to set me apart. I was already basically set apart anyway. I had a vivid imagination, so I could entertain myself. Unlike kids today, I didn’t need a game system or computer to keep me occupied. I didn’t really give in to depression until I got a little older, a teenager. That’s when I stopped spending time with God and started listening to rebellious music and started dating rebellious boys. ~Proverbs 5:6 (NIV) says, “She gives no thought to the way of life; her paths are crooked, but she knows it not.”~ Ouch!

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Do you ever feel like you just don’t belong? As a young girl and teenager, I remember crying and asking my mom if I was actually an alien or if I looked funny or different than other people. I would wonder if I was really a hideous freak and just seeing a normal person looking back at me in the mirror. ~John 15:19 (NIV) says, “If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.”~ I certainly had no idea what God was doing. I always thought that I was the problem and that I could never do anything right. It took a while, a long, long while, but now I know that I am the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus. ~2 Corinthians 5:21 (NIV) says, “God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.”~

I have found, since I have gotten older, that we all have ‘oh yeah!’ moments. You will find them when you have prayed and let God help you with your problems and offenses and soul wounds. I would say that it usually only happens at the point in life when you can learn something from it instead of getting bitter, angry, or sad when you think about it. At some point, all of the built up anxiety, anger, and rage will get so old that you just finally give it to God… and He will take all that pain from you… and you WILL become FREE. It is necessary to let God heal the soul wounds from your past, so you can get dominion over the lies and bondage of the devil. He just loves reminding you of all your failures, mistakes, and problems, but remember that God doesn’t expect us to be perfect. That’s why Jesus came. Otherwise, we wouldn’t need a savior, healer, or redeemer. Remind the enemy who your God is. And, remind him that you have read the end of the Book- and God wins. We are not expected to be perfect; we are made perfect through Christ. ~2 Corinthians 5:17 (NIV) says, “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!”~

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You are what you think

Here is my story. My life has been an uneventful life, but somehow I have been plagued by depression for a far back as I can remember. I am a vivid thinker, not brilliant by any stretch of the imagination, but I am always deep in thought about one thing or another. I will occasionally furl my brow when I am thinking about something. Sometimes people think I am mad and ask if I am in a bad mood because of my facial expressions.

I have always had a problem making friends. I thought it was because I was ugly or stupid. The fact is, it was probably because of some strange face I was making and it probably made other kids ‘wonder’ about me. I probably inadvertently pushed people away without knowing what I was doing. I am sure that my facial expressions were not the whole issue of why I never fit in with other people, but it was some of it. We really need to take a long, hard look at ourselves and be honest about how others might see us. Here’s a thought– always be approachable and …Smile!


I have been studying in my Soul Winning class that we are responsible for the blood of others. That is pretty scary to me. If we know that someone is sinning, it is our responsibility to confront them about it.  ~Ezekiel 33:6 (NIV) says, “ But if the watchman sees the sword coming and does not blow the trumpet to warn the people and the sword comes and takes the life of one of them, that man will be taken away because of his sin, but I will hold the watchman accountable for his blood.”~ We are the watchmen and that means that we need to spend time loving others enough to tell them the truth. Also, ~2 Timothy 2:25 (NIV) says,” Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth.”~ 

That is my goal in this book. I know that God is greater than depression and that I can overcome it with His help. We all can overcome our ungodly strongholds and build Godly strongholds in their place. ~Isaiah 53:5 (KJV) says, “But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.”~ That verse tells me that I am healed and I only need to receive it and meditate on it and stop letting the devil deceive me. Just like Pastor Andrew Towe  at the Power Plant Ministry Center in Chattanooga, TN always says, “The devil is a liar”. This is the truth! We all need to keep telling ourselves over and over- the devil is a liar, the devil is a liar, the devil is a liar -until we believe it.


I know, for me, that I don’t spend enough time in God’s word. ~Joshua 1:8-9 (MSG) says, “And don’t for a minute let this Book of The Revelation be out of mind. Ponder and meditate on it day and night, making sure you practice everything written in it. Then you’ll get where you’re going; then you’ll succeed. Haven’t I commanded you? Strength! Courage! Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take. ‘The Taking of the Land’.” ~ That’s a very powerful scripture. I AM taking the Land!

The definition of a CHRISTIAN on the website is one who professes belief in the teachings of Jesus Christ; b: disciple

A Christian is listed as a noun in the dictionary, but I think it is more a verb. We are disciples, and this means that we should be doing the work of Jesus. That means we are not just being like Christ; we are acting and doing like Christ. Jesus also told us, as His disciples, to go out to all the nations and preach the good news to the poor. ~Mark 16: 15 (NIV) says “He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation.”~ I declare that I will not be a ‘hearer’ only of God’s word, but a ‘doer’. ~Deuteronomy 30:16 says, “For I command you today to Love the Lord your God, to walk in His ways…”~ We must walk the walk and talk the talk. Others are watching us so we must lead by example.


Here is my testimony. I fight depression. I have for as long as I can remember. I have come a long, long way with the help of Jesus. The definition of depression found on the website is a state of feeling sad: dejection: a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies.

God instructed me to write this book while I am studying and researching my own life long struggle. I have recently learned that when you have an area that you need help in, you spend time reading all you can about it and researching it. I have always had to fight for a sound mind. I finally came to the conclusion that the main cause of my depression was that I was being selfish and only thinking of myself, my situation, and my problems. So, I purposely began focusing on other things besides myself, but I still had episodes of severe depression that I could not seem to control. I really tried to fight it, but after a time, things would begin to feel hopeless again and I would be right back down to where I was before.

~2 Timothy 1:7 (KJV) says, “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (NIV) puts it like this, “For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-control.”~ Hmmm. How about that? So, I now know from the Word of God that I am a woman of power! I am not timid! I am not fearful! I do have self-control and I do have a sound mind! That’s a good scripture to start praying and declaring every day.


Your testimony is something that you should share with others so that they will know where you have been and how far you have come.  ~Joshua 4:21 (NIV) says, “Don’t forget what God brought me out of… Remember, testimony… “~ 

Merriam-webster’ defines TESTIMONY as: the tablets inscribed with the Mosaic Law: the ark containing the tablets; a divine decree attested in the Scriptures; firsthand authentication of a fact: evidence; an outward sign; a solemn declaration usually made orally by a witness under oath in response to interrogation by a lawyer or authorized public official; an open acknowledgment; a public profession of religious experience.

~Deuteronomy 28:7 says, “The Lord will grant that the enemies who rise up against you will be defeated before you: They will come at you from one direction but flee from you in seven.”~ This depression will flee! In seven different directions!


Heavenly Father, in the name of Jesus; I also pray that you will set a fire deep in the souls of over comers to write down or speak their personal testimonies. ~Revelation 12:11 (NIV) says, “They overcome him (the accuser) by the blood of the Lamb and the word of their testimony.”~ As a Christian, I feel that I need to give my testimony in obedience to God.

I am currently overcoming depression. Some of you may have overcome (or are overcoming) physical, sexual, or drug abuse. What a mighty testimony to others who are going through what you went (or are going) through, and conquered (or are conquering). God expects us to bless others and our testimony is one way to do that. ~Ecclesiastes 11:2 (MSG) says,” Don’t hoard your goods; spread them around. Be a blessing to others. This could be your last night.”~